Watching and Waiting

There have been a handful of times in my life when I have felt like I was standing in the middle of a busy station watching everyone go in different directions.  They all have a calling, a purpose or a passion to take them on the next journey.  

I stand watching.  

Not knowing which direction my next step should be.  Not sure of where the road leads for me.  

I stand watching.  

Lovers heading in one direction.  Professionals heading down a different path toward their next big deal.  Families laughing down the road of memories.  

I stand watching.  

The happy girl is taking another tunnel with many following her.  People slipping by me to follow their given or chosen path.

I stand watching.  

Not daring to take another step.  
Not sure.  
Wondering.  
Watching.

Tonight, I feel stranded in the middle of the station of life........
wondering....
which way to turn....

I have been the lover hand in hand.  I have been the professional.  I have definitely been the cheerful one who has many friends along her way.  

Yesterday, I would have said I was any one of these and I would have fervently told you that I was following His path....

Today, I am standing.  
I am watching.  
I am lost in a storm, and I desperately need to feel His love and gentle guidance.

Desperately!  

So, I stand watching.....and waiting.